It’s Never Too Late: The Late Bloomer Chronicles

Going for your dreams at fifty or any other age is like going back to school. You’re going to be even older and live those years anyway, so why not have something special to show for it? Show yourself that you can do things, and inspire those around you with your dedication, courage, and tenacity. At the very least you will have tried, and indeed that, after having loved and been loved by others, is the greatest value in living!

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Keep Breathing and Appreciating

Whenever you get an almost panic-like worry thought or feeling, stop, take a slow, deep breath, and tune into the present moment and your surroundings. Start looking for and finding things to appreciate and enjoy in the present moment and in your llife. Slowly start to, and sustain, a sincere smile. Keep breathing and appreciating!

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Intermittent Fasting Update (including Green Smoothie & Kale Salad recipe!)

Thursday, January 11: 226.5 lbs
Sunday, January 7: 228.5 lbs (-2lbs in 4 days)
Last Thursday, January 4: 230 lbs (-3.5 lbs in 7 days)
Starting weight: 236 lbs.
* Cure hypertension
* Normalize food and eating behaviors
* Heal stomach damaged by lifelong (48 years) eating disorder
* Recover from trauma-related weight issues
* Improve Bipolar 2 and PTSD illness management (both diagnosed in, and in treatment since 1993)
* Attain radiant health
* Enhance spiritual experience
* Accomplish creative, academic, and professional goals
* Increase longevity
* Share the journey!

I am doing a 16:8 Intermittent Fasting schedule of 7am-3pm. This means I eat only during those hours, and fast the rest. (Technically I eat my last meal of the day around 2-ish, so that by the time I’m finished eating, it’s 3 o’clock.)
Besides eating and fasting, the next two important things for me are sleeping enough and drinking enough water. I try for 8 hours and 1 gallon, respectively, and while I usually fall short of one or the other, just having the focus and goal creates a structure and routine I find very comforting, and the daily progress of my efforts is good for my self-esteem and motivation to go forward.

In the morning (I usually go to sleep around 9pm and wake up around 5 or 6am), I go get 64 oz green smoothie from the fridge then bring it to the bedroom where I am. Then I drink water, and wait 30 minutes for it to digest, also waiting for the green smoothie to warm to a more comfortable chugging temperature.
Then over the course of an hour or so, I drink all the green smoothie.
Then, after 30 minutes digesting time, I have a large meal of:
* Kale salad – large and in its own separate bowl
* A plate of cooked vegetables and a starch (although seeing some YouTube videos of intermittent fasters I’m considering going low-carb, though I don’t think it will be necessary until either my bipolar-related moods react too much to the volume of grains (mostly whole) and sugars (mostly honey and gelatin dessert) or I reach a plateau in my weight loss. And I think I’m a long way from reaching any plateau at this point.
* Sweets of either plain, lowfat yogurt with honey, or bran cereal with unsweetened almondmilk and honey, or gelatin dessert, and/or sweet potato cake/muffin with the cream cheese frosting removed and replaced with honey-sweetened yogurt.

Not a goal right now. Twice a week (when I go to therapy) I walk about 40 minutes (to and from the bus), and every day I do housework in a place with stairs, but that’s about it. I’m not prioritizing exercise at the moment, just working on the intermittent fasting regimen.

* Bananas, including inside of the peel, which I scrape and include to benefit my gastritis/acid reflux- prone stomach
* Collards
* Celery
* Water

* Kale
* Lite salt (half salt, half potassium)
* Onion powder
* Raw organic apple cider vinegar
* Cold pressed extra virgin olive oil


* Searching “intermittent fasting” on YouTube
* Google search “no dinner diet”


While searching I happened to see stuff about how intermittent fasting is particularly good for athletes, bodybuilders, and pre-menopausal or menopausal women. So if you identify with any or all of those, that’s exciting to know!




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Go Coach Yourself!

Those of us who are good at coaching and organizing for others forget we have the same skills to do those things for ourselves as well. Next time you feel lost, trapped, or tired, switch places and coach yourself!

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Food Journal: Intermittent Fasting

So I’m trying this thing called “intermittent fasting.” I first heard of it, in other terms, from Paul Nison, who is a religious raw vegan, who said to stop eating at 3pm. This made sense to me, because it goes with the idea of nature and our bodies starting to retire for the day, including digestively, as the afternoon becomes evening.
I had prior to that, stopped eating at 7pm, and felt better, but nothing compared to what happened when I stopped eating at 3pm. I have done that from time to time and brought it back more often when I recently began my weight loss efforts.
I now believe that stopping eating at 3pm contributed significantly to my few pounds shed recently.
I don’t have to do this every day (I aim for a minimum of twice a week), but I have decided to make it a regular part of my life going forward.
After all, I’m trying to build a life-long regimen, and make a lifestyle change for positive results that last forever.
That being said, I’m awake now, at 1:16am, writing out of a need to not eat!
From what I understand intermittent fasting is when you go for 16-18 hours without eating.
My personal schedule is eating from 7am-3pm. (This is easy to remember because it’s my favorite shift when I have worked many times as a barista!)
Things that work for me are:
*Green smoothie and salads
*Whole grains (brown rice, brown pasta, sweet potatoes and yams)
*Raw organic apple cider vinegar
*Parmesan grated cheese for low sodium flavor
*Going to sleep early to avoid the kitchen(eating)
Staying in the bedroom and writing or watching YouTube instead of going downstairs and watching TV, because watching TV makes me eat, and downstairs is where the kitchen is and being in or near the kitchen makes me eat.
*Drinking water when I’m hungry/think I’m hungry/am nervous,sad,frustrated,or stressed

Today I am thankful for friends, the place I live, twice-weekly therapy (and the tax payers who provide it) and all the blessings therein!

Thank you for reading,


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Healing Artist: Don’t Focus On Selling

Dear renaissance negresse appreciators (and Total Complete Strangers)!

Hope you’re enjoying this holiday season!
I wanted to share a thought with those of you who may relate:

Healing Artist,

Don’t focus on selling.
Focus on:
1)Healing (yourself)
2)Expressing yourself
3)Honoring and practicing your craft(s)
4)Sharing your journey and illuminations with others

These will bring you all the benefits you seek, only part of which will be sales and income.

Go forth and heal! And enjoy your beautiful creative life!


Recommended reading and listening:
The “Creating Money” book and audio series by Sanaya Roman (and Duane Packer) available at

Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

“renaissance negresse”

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website:

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Bipolar Affirmation for Discernment 

Today I choose well and I focus on actions towards good and lasting things.

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