Housing and Travel/Tour (GoFundMe) Update!

Dear Friends & Supporters!

I am very happy to be finally sitting down to write you an update on my recent fundraising campaign to address a housing crisis I am still in the middle of.
I really appreciate your interest and your donations.
The incident that created my sudden need to start looking for “housing” happened on Sept. 10th. Since then, there has been a slight reprieve, but the situation is still what it is. A good thing was that I set a target date of one month from initial onset, which means that I ought to have found another place by October 10th.
Bad news is that that hasn’t happened. Good news is that setting a date helped me reach a breakthrough:

“Housing” doesn’t resonate nor feel good to me. I feel unempowered and have no resources to “get housing.” “Housing” is an emergency category. It is something that requires dependence upon the social service agencies that don’t seem to be there for the likes of me.
What does feel good and resonate with me? “Travel/Tour.” That’s exciting! That is in the arts category. It is something I feel empowered and resourceful and experienced in. It’s a dream.
People will support an emergency crisis or urgent need. But people LOVE to support a DREAM.

So, I feel very good about this.

So far, my plan is to:

Use my channel (be an artist)
Share my journey (whatever I’m going through – share it)
Keep moving towards my dreams, with my challenges as who I am today.

With this huge breakthrough of having replaced “Housing” with “Travel/Tour” I realized that the vision board I made on my 50th birthday this year (in February) is still very accurate. In fact, this supposed housing crisis can be viewed as little more than a nudge (or swift kick in the hineal reggiones) to gits ta movin’ towards said goals (to, in this, my 50th year, 1) Organize Philadelphia’s 13th Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival, 2) Produce Colorado’s first BWAF in the year 2020 3) Finish and release a book 4) Finish and release an album. The idea is to travel to do poetry readings, to gig, and to produce BWAFs. And to write about it all.

I have already been doing this in varying degrees:
A few gigs here and there
A poetry reading co-feature
Co–organized BWAF Philly 2019
Traveled to Colorado in April to begin working on the first CO BWAF there…
Prepaid work hours with a book layout person – he’s just waiting for my manuscript…

My challenge now is to become active as a multi-media artist (“renaissance negresse”) in my 50s as I was in my 20s and 30s. To do it with the challenges I have now that I didn’t have then.
And to talk about it in case my story and experience resonates with and helps someone else on their journey. That is my desire.

My challenge is also to overcome depression and procrastination to:
Collect and distribute gig fliers
Make business cards
Post announcements of my upcoming appearances.

What I’ve done so far with some of the funds I have received was book 2 nights at a hotel February. The reasons include:
For the past few years, it has been a tradition for me to spend my birthday in a hotel. I love hotels and since right now my family of choice is not assembled (but it’s a comin’!) I at least can enjoy the company of myself 🙂
If I am in a fix for lodging during that period of time, I at least should not have to spend my birthday in too much discomfort.
If is during the weekend of the 15th Annual Poly Living Conference (in Philadelphia). I frequently am a presenter there – and in fact presented at the Rocky Mountain Poly Living Conference when I visited Colorado in April…
So, there is a chance I may again be a presenter, and it would be convenient to already be in the area during that weekend.
I feel relieved that I already have lodging arranged for my 51st birthday. I hope you don’t feel this is irresponsible use of your kind and generous funds!

Meanwhile, I am trying to overcome depression and procrastination to prepare for my social security disability insurance appeal which will be heard in court very soon.
I don’t know what to expect with that, but I am open to the best and am open to being pleasantly surprised 🙂
If I can find a way to not have to speak at the hearing, I have a better chance. In my experience, as soon as I open my mouth, people think I can rule the world and therefore don’t need any help. (That’s why I need to be speaking and singing more!)

Anyway. Not much more to say. I will try to write again.
Thank you again for your donations.
My goal is to rent a room somewhere, and it doesn’t really much matter where as long as it’s in the US for now. And right now I’ve not enough for the standard rates and conditions, but I also don’t how much to ask for. I suppose I should have a better plan. Sorry if I sound too flaky. I guess that’s why I’m in the shape I am, huh? 🙂
Good news is that I am able to manifest a place to live from time to time – and this time it lasted 3 years. So I am holding on to the vision of being able to attract and manifest another good situation, in which my presence is a blessing to someone.
It will happen 🙂

I’ll keep you posted and thank you for the birthday (hotel stay) gift 🙂

In art, spirit, and community,

Cassendre Xavier
Multi-Media Healing Artist
renaissance negresse

Donation links:


“My 50th Year” Vision Board – Part 1 of 2 https://youtu.be/x6EeDtB43_I

“My 50th Year” Vision Board – Part 2 of 2 https://youtu.be/Sm9e-ab-r2k

Housing and Travel/Tour Update – Part 1 of 2 https://youtu.be/XcsxqqmkSRo

Housing and Travel/Tour Update – Part 2 of 2 https://youtu.be/rqjVHgdG6ro

About cassendre

aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls “renaissance negresse & ARTrepreneur” (musician/writer/actress/fine artist) Leeway Transformation Award-Winning founder & executive director of the Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002). Visit: http://cassendrexavier.com
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