What the angels want you to know today 9/10/17

Don’t Get Out of Bed Until You Do This
Sometimes, or iff’n you’re very fortunate most or all of the time you wake up feeling pretty good and optimistic about things-  the world,  your life, etc.

 Once in a while, if difficult or unpleasant things are happening, or if you have the gift and challenge of some form of depression, it will be harder to get out of bed. Harder to start the day, because of thoughts that don’t feel so good.

 I have the great depression as well as a teensy bit of life challenge that happens to include a project with a fast approaching deadline (so anxiety is as its peakery reggiones!). When I wake up these days, I’m surprised and oh so very, very grateful when I actually wake up feelin’ purdy cheerful! 

 Usually when I awake in the land of dumpsville, I just say a few comforting things to myself, mentally, and that helps me feel better. Or I’ve got Columbo to look forward to in a few minutes, so I hurry up and make the beds and pack up my computer and notes and maybe collect laundry before heading downstairs to set myself up on the couch to write and do my online stuffs, which all make me very happy, especially when I can get in a couple of loads of laundry. I cherish being alone, although I also enjoy when my nesting partner, his college-attending daughter and I are all at home enjoying being at home together. (But I prefer being there alone, because there’s nothing to stress me out or concern me other than the stressors already in my own head and in the world around me!)

  This morning was particularly challenging for me to get out of bed and feel good.

 My CLAP breathing machine stopped working on August 23rd and I haven’t received the replacement unit yet (hopefully it will arrive tomorrow.) In the interim several of my sleep apnea symptoms have returned, including fatigue, frequent urination especially at night, and early this morning I had an attack o’ the old painful dry-eye! I woke up to pee (again!!!) and my left eye was really hurting,  and watering, and I realized what had happened – the condition I had before the machine returned. It is so painful but now feels better. 

 So, when I woke up, I had physical reasons to feel bad in addition to the other reasons.

 But I knew I didn’t want to get out of bed feeling that way. I must have put out a psychic, milli- second plea to the angels for relief and guidance because suddenly I knew:
Don’t get out of bed until you feel better. This is very important. We are glad you asked and came to us!

 Before you get out of bed right now, say 10 things to yourself that are positive. They can be less than 10 things that you repeat, but ideally choose 10 different things at least. More is better but not if it becomes boring, annoying, or something you resent doing.
So I said to myself: 
Everything’s going to be okay.

Everything IS okay!

All is well.

The world is fine.

I am beautiful. 

People love me.

I am loved.

I accept myself as I am.

I am doing the best i can.

All is well.
I mean, I don’t remember if I said exactly those things, I didn’t write them down, but it was only a few minutes ago and they are what I think about a lot, and they do address all of my concerns right now.

If you are:

Worried about your productivity, know that everyone is doing the best they can, given the way they are and the resources they have at the time. That includes you. Also, note that your life does not consist of just one area of “work” but many.

The angels and guides (including God) help us see the greater picture of our lives, and that we are always doing good work and making progress. Never judge yourself harshly, especially not for how much typical work you do or how much money from this work you make. You are much more than these things in the eyeball sockets of Spirit!
If you are:

Living in a challenging household, try to work around the difficulties, and meet people where they are or find and interact with the traits about them you do enjoy.

 For instance, my nesting partner smokes a lot and I realized as I wrote this that one of the reasons I was kinda bummed about getting up was that I could already smell the cigarette smoke in the bedroom on the smoke-free 2nd floor from his smoking on the first floor. I was feeling anxious about going downstairs for breakfast. 

 But I decided to relax, and when I heard him come up to use the bathroom I called out his name on his way back down. I remembered that while his is usually very negative in how he speaks and sees the world, he loves to watch the news and complain about the government or just about everything he can find to complain about, one of the very handy and helpful things about him is he is very sympathetic to others’ pain, and is superman when it comes to handling a problem. I called him in and when he came in I told him about my painful eye incident. He way very concerned, very compassionate, and it was a very sweet and short conversation. He returned to his smokes, coffee, and computer, and I got back to writing this. Time alone but together. I felt better.
I hope that every day you wake up feeling pretty good and having positive thoughts about who you are in this world and how it is all around you, because all is truly well! 
Well doesn’t mean happy, in this case, it means learning the value of practicing acceptance, seeing the gifts and the lessons in everything.
I wish that for you today, and that you recognize your true value and worth, and see yourself, others, and the world around you through the eyeball sockets of Spirit. 
And so it is!


About cassendre

aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls “renaissance negresse & ARTrepreneur” (musician/writer/actress/fine artist) Leeway Transformation Award-Winning founder & executive director of the Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002). Visit: http://cassendrexavier.com
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